When I started this blog two years (!) ago, I started it for me. So that I could look back and see what I've accomplished, things I've done and how far I'd gone in life. Nowadays? I question myself every time I go to hit publish because there's always some naysayer out there that will criticize what I've said and that freaking sucks.
As bloggers, I feel like we're all trying to get more readers, get more comments, get more publicity -- but why? What for? We're doing it for all the wrong reasons folks. Do it for you. Don't do it for anyone else. It's time to get real. It's time that I address my blogging identity crisis and just embrace that this has, in fact, become a MOM BLOG.
I admit it. I talk about my kid non-stop and I totally understand that it can be really annoying to those who want nothing to do with kids. I tried for months to balance between mom-blog and life-blog, but these days? I cannot think of anything else I want to post about besides Noah. If this is truly a life blog, then that's what my life is now. It's him. My life is all wrapped up in this teeny tiny person who can just look at you and make you melt. Even when he's pooping all over me right before dinner, he never ceases to make me smile. Granted, I there are times I just want to scream but as soon as he squishes that nose up and smiles - gah, I'm done. He's got me. And in those moments where it's just me and him? I sit and realize, I'm a mom. I'm responsible for another person. He's going to look to me for advice and guidance and that's kind of a big freaking deal. It's something I know I can't do alone, as they say, it takes a village, right?
Us moms need each other, whether it's in real life or over the internet, I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have my sister to relate to or friends like Colleen, Lucy, Brittany or Abby to vent to. To cry to. To listen to and empathize with. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have bloggers like MK or Motley Mama who write what I'm too afraid to write! They gave me the courage to embrace my mom-hood and just blog what I feel.
I'm turning a new leaf and going to write what's in my heart and I really hope you'll stick around. Sure, things might get a little hairy, but that's life. That's parenthood. That's how I roll. I'm not afraid to be honest so why am I so hesitant to tell you guys that I really don't like breastfeeding? Why am I silencing myself from telling you that my kid was up at 2am screaming his face off again? Just because a few of you might unfollow? Well, so be it. I need to express who I am on my blog because that's what it is, it's my blog.
Whew. That got a little more intense than I really expected it to be but now that it's out there, I hope you moms and non-moms will still hang with me, even if I am talking about poop and vomit 99% of the time. I promise, there will be cute pictures involved. :)