11 weeks ago today, you made me a mom. I never knew how strong I was until I met you. The day you came into the world was a hard, draining, beautiful and emotional day. Your dad and I had no idea how much our lives would change after you were born but things just keep getting better and better. You've brought us closer together and you've made us a family. We're in this together, no matter what.
No matter how loud I yell or how mad you are at me, we still love each other. You may only be 2 months old today but when you're 16 and sneak out of the house or get your first F in school, I still love you.
Even when you scratch your dad's car or smoke behind the garage, I promise I won't tell. It'll be our little secret.
When you're scared or in trouble or in love? I'm here for you. Even though I might not want to hear about the girl who has a crush on you, I want you to tell me. That's something I'm going to have to get used to because no one can resist your eyes or your smile, even now.
In the few weeks that you've been on this earth, you've shown me that there is such a thing as unconditional love. You've made me realize how much I should appreciate my own mom, and I know she'll probably read this so we should thank her too. Without your gramma, there's no way I would be who I am today.
She always told me that we weren't allowed to grow up but now that I have you, I know what she meant. There are days that I just want to freeze time so that I can protect you forever. Like this morning, when you fell asleep on my chest, I wanted to stay in that moment forever, just listening to you snore and breathing you in. But just as fast as I wish you would stay 2 months old forever, I can't wait to see you grow up.
So I'll cherish these little moments we have because I know someday soon, I won't be able to hold you anymore. Someday, you won't want to hold my hand anymore and I know someday, you'll probably want me to drop you off a block away from your school, just so you won't be seen with me. But you know what? That's all okay. Whether you want me to or not, I'm still going to scream "I LOVE YOU!" across the school yard, because I do. I love you with all my heart and with every fiber in my body.
Noah, thank you for making me a mother. It's both rewarding and challenging and it's the best job I've ever had.
As long as I'm living, my baby you'll be.
I love you,