Thursday, April 19, 2012

Sometimes You Cry

Guys, being a mom is hard. I knew it was going to be hard. When you get pregnant, people say to read books. People gave me tips. Bloggers told me what to do. Regardless, none of this prepares you how to really be a parent. No one can tell you what your baby will do.

Yesterday, I took to twitter to ask my fellow moms what they're favorite part of being a parent was and what was one thing they hated about it. Colleen, Brittany, Meagan, Abby, my sister Heather and even Kari, who is a furbaby mom, came to me with similar answers.

Most of them said they love their baby's smile and the fact that they love you unconditionally. Even as infants, they know they can rely on us and that, in itself, is amazing. Some of them said they loved seeing their baby's father be a dad, and I have to admit, that part is really great. You think you know someone? See them as a parent and you'll see a completely different person.

Of course, most of the ladies said the lack of sleep is the worst. Not only that, but a couple of them said they hate the fact that they feel like they don't know what they're doing. But truthfully, I think Kari put it best when she said that she's petrified of her furbabies being hurt or sad. That girl hit the nail on the head.

My poor Noah had a tummy ache on Monday and there was absolutely nothing I could do but listen to him cry. I had him on my shoulder and he was screaming in pain as I patted his back and sang to him softly. Every little whimper that came out of him just broke my heart into a million pieces. For almost an hour, he writhed in pain and all I could do was just cry with him. My poor husband watched us both break down and when Noah finally fell asleep, I crashed. We both slept for almost 8 hours that night and when I woke up the next morning, I felt so guilty. All I kept thinking while I was trying to go to sleep was how I really hated being a mom in that moment. Seeing him in pain and not being able to do anything was the worst thing imaginable.

I know there's a loooong road ahead of me and this is just one of the many speedbumps I will encounter but knowing these fellow moms and you all reading are behind me really helps. Knowing I have an amazing support system with me, Kevin, and Noah as we go through this journey gives me the confidence I need to be a great mom. We're blessed beyond belief with an amazing family to help us and even though we have bad days, the good ones make it all worth it.

16 comments:

Carolyn said...

You're doing great!!! I can't imagine how hard it is, but that little guy is lucky to have you! :)

Sean Marie said...

Ugh, I know what you mean. The thought of Natalie being in any kind of pain or discomfort makes my heart hurt.

Meagan said...

Poor baby!

Jessica said...

Ok, whoooooaaahh I am SO behind! I swear I haven't even logged into Blogger in forever! Um, you had your baby?!? And he is absolutely ADORABLE!!! Seriously beautiful. Congrats x1000!

And yes, it is hard at times, and always hard to hear them cry. Hang in there. Life will get easier for all 3 of you. I promise. Once his little belly adjusts he will be so much better. I just know you are an awesome Mommy too! He is one lucky little dude! :)

e410 said...

You're doing a great job and you're an amazing mama. I love you and can't imagine how hard it must be to be a mom, but I know you're doing a great job and Noah loves you more than anything. I'm sorry, girl!

Deepali said...

Belated Congratulations! I have not been frequenting blogger so I apologize for the delay. It will get easier, you will fall into a rhythm, do not worry. It's never easy and the times they cry you will cry along with them but it will pass, I promise! All the comfort you provide him with does actually make a difference, believe me! You may not see it, but it's there, and when you see the recognition in his eyes of his mama, it makes everything worth it.

Kelsey Claire said...

Awwww! I think because you felt that bad meant you were a great mom!

Jennifer B said...

You are AWESOME, my love, and are a fantastic mommy!

Amy said...

I can't imagine what it was like for mothers many decades ago when they couldn't jump on their computer and find endless support on the interwebs.

I hope that the little man is doing better for yours and his sake!

Smiling is Good for Your Teeth said...

What an honest post - that is what I love most about your blog! - I can't even imagine what you are going through, but I am sure that you are an amazing and loving mother and Noah is lucky to have you!

Tiffany said...

Poor baby!

You are an amazing mom!!

Neely said...

YOU ARE WONDERFUL! I think every mom probably goes through that. My best friend said during her first 3 months that she wasn't sure mothering was for her. She said its hands down the hardest time. Hang in there friend. Text me if you need to vent :)

Kelsey said...

Oh, I'm so sorry!! It is do hard and I've done my fair share of crying and fresking out about stuff. Today I told Sean that i don't think I will ever not be worried and carefree; there is just so much responsibility now.

lavenderpug said...

oh that must have broken your heart--it sounds like it's wonderful but also so hard to experience being a mom. you're doing a great job, though!

KRISTIN said...

I seriously just cried. I love when new mom's are honest. Even those of us who don't have babies aren't dumb enough to think it's all sunshine and rainbows. The fact that you can admit and share when things are hard is HUGE because it really does mean you're not alone. Noah is a lucky little dude to have you! I hope he is feeling better and that you are too. xoxoxoxox!

Anni said...

I'm really glad you posted this. It's great to read an honest perspective - I hate that idea that only the shiny, happy moments of life should be talked about. Because in reality, we all go through these moments, and to share them makes us realize we're not alone, we're all human.

You are a seriously amazing mom, and I love seeing how you are about Noah. Wish I could be there to take some more photos for you, my love!

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